i don't really know what i wanna do in life - but i sure do know what i don't wanna do! you know that expression 'doing the smart thing' very similar with 'doing the right thing'? well, there's this wickedness about it. when you do the smart thing it's like you did it against someone. it's like you did it for you and for 'them' (as in society); it's like you obeyed, sold a little more of you to get something, to get approval or recognition or fame - that kind o shit.
what i'm saying is that i don't want to do the smart thing. i don't want to get 'them' or 'you' to like me. i don't want to win. i just don't want to be like you. there's nothing to be won outhere. i just don't want to do the right thing. it never seems to work - so WHY BOTHER?!
i chose to choose, thus i chose not to do the smart thing. i chose dumb. i choose to lose. (if this sounds tranispotting-ish, well...it iz!)